Long week

This week was a hard week.  Not only have I been feeling a bit emotional lately I am also working through the feelings of missing Texas.  Don't get me wrong. I like where we live now, and I LOVE our home.  And in the grand scheme of things I would go anywhere as long as I had Kevin.  But I am feeling further and further away from Texas... and I am not sure I like it. 

I have been putting off changing my drivers license.  I know it sounds silly, but I feel like its the last real document that ties me to there :(  I feel like once it is gone I have lost "where I am from" and have become just another New Yorker.  I also like it because its a conversation starter.  When we go places and they see the Texas license it instantly starts questions.  Call me silly, and it may seem small but for some reason its got me all in a funk.
So then comes the other two pieces....
Last week I decided to finally bite the bullet and find a "local" doctor.  I have been putting it off, because lets be honest ladies once you find one you like you dont give up your "golden ticket".  But we are officially staying in NY for a while so I figured I better get it over with.  WELLLLLL  big mistake!  My first visit was a nightmare.  And after only a thought I can say I wont be going back.  UGH so frustrating.  Not only did the doctor tell me in not so many word that I was crazy for even being there, he did not do anything outside of jot a few pieces of information down before dismissing me and any questions or concerns I have.  He was so quick to brush me off that he told me that "On paper I am perfectly healthy, and there was no reason for the visit!"  HELLLLOOOOO, its a first visit.  That is the reason for the visit.  Well after looking at his watch TWICE I realized I had made a huge mistake in trying to find another doctor.  I'm not saying I need him to spend his whole day with me...but I've had my own laundry list of "girl" problems in the past.  So I want to make sure I stay on top of things and that I am "OK".  Well, this guy was not the one to do that.  When I first left I felt frustrated and angry, but then as the day when on I started to second guess myself.  By the time I got home I was in tears and had convinced myself that I was a nut!  haha
But after a little support from Kevin and Momma Christy, I realized that I was just going to have to start my doctor search over and kindly remove my self from this guys patient list!!

Last and not least, Kevin and I went out the other night to watch the Cotton Bowl.  While we were out I just felt so sad.  I just couldnt get over the feeling of missing Texas and really really missing our friends.  I mean, we really have no friends outside of a few work colleagues up here.  And I MISS FRIENDS. No really, I miss them!  I love Kevin with all my heart, and really he is my best friend and soul mate.  Thank God he is so supportive...because without him I would crumble more often than I already do.  But there is nothing like good old fashioned friends.  So after lots of tears this weekend and some UGH moments and Kevin consoling me.... Friends is now first thing on the to do list.  Yep, we are gonna make us some friends! lol 
Wish us luck!